I watched the Princess and the Frog for the first time the other night – kind of insane I hadn’t until now. I’m not the biggest disney adult but I am a huge fan of 2d animation in that style. There were themes in the movie I really needed to hear at this point in my life – particularly Mama Oaties song about getting to the core of what you actually need, if what you want keeps being denied. I’m someone who really wants something to believe in, and for someone to believe in me, but I mistakenly look externally for that validation. Not that I don’t deserve to have supportive people around me, and people who I can in turn support – but I need to be my own #1 cheerleader.
That’s cold comfort when you are craving connection though. No pun intended but it reminds me of the scene in Frozen 2 when Elsa gets to the superman ice cave and finds out that the mysterious voice was not someone who understood her and could help her find her purpose, it was just the universe calling her to embrace her full power. On the one hand it’s liberating, that everything you were searching for and projecting is within you, and isn’t held hostage by the whims of someone else. In my own experience, though, it doesn’t really soften the devastating sense of betrayal from the universe’s bait and switch – but I suppose the universe would say I played myself.
In other news, I finally got to see my art in the exhibition I was picked for. My imposter syndrome always flares up with things like this, so I’m trying to stay numb and appreciate it later. I can’t really tell yet if this is a dead end, but it’s one more thing to check off the art bucket list 🙌❤️
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