Arboretum moment! I have to apologize for the hair again, me and the humidity have not yet come to an understanding. It’s the same angle as last time, for completely coincidental reasons. I mention at the end about danny’s show being all ages, and I forgot to say I am VERY interested to see what an All Ages Tory Ward set looks like LOL.
On a slightly darker note, below is some context for my need to speak very deliberately, to control/mitigate misunderstanding through empathy and exact wording.
I was drawn in by these posts from purely cynical accounts. It’s always frustrating when something hits, but you look down and see a too long ai generated description, with too many emojis. They have the most generic handle known to man, like TheTherapyDiary, and the last slide is always shilling some book or course. And yet.
I have never seen the kind of pausing I do portrayed, or even in my everyday life. It’s that long pause, where he goes completely still and silent, like his soul has left his body. He buys more time with an “I dunno I think, um…” When I saw it, the tears came immediately. I’ve felt so frustrated any time I listen to myself talk, with these long, long silences….hurry up! The people are waiting! I don’t even realize how long they are, and I was horrified when I first heard recording of myself. Time doesn’t exist when you go that far back inside your mind.
And he is right. It feels like gaslighting. There is always another shoe.
I can’t do more to explain than what is shown, if you get it you get it. I will, however, leave these 2 comments which I feel are also true to my experience
–
–
To make the whiplash complete, though, I would like to do a little room tour!
my comicbook-character-costume ass 1 headband and 2 necklaces I wear every day, the perfume I use when I see danny’s shows for memory retention purposes, my lucky yellow heart, and chewgy bag #1 from barns and noble.
My “vase” is a big water jug with a handle I covered with my witch dress shall. Did I bring any utensils, cups, bowls? No. Did I bring 5 different tarot decks and a bunch of gems? Yes ofc. The kids book I got at the grocery store, it was on last call for like $1 and the art was just so beautiful. Stickers that were at the bottom of my purse, so they get to live there with Jung. I wonder if Jung would cosign the Buccees synchronicity? Finally, my portable watercolors and various scrapbooking / journaling stuff.
OK, did I go to whole foods and just get fancy cheese and raspberry rose spread and ros’e? No, I also got organic grassfeed milk but drank it all, just to spite Laura and indulge in some light hypocracy. But did you know they sell shelf-stable-before-opening milk? This was honestly the greatest news in the world for someone who hates having a cooler, but also would die before drinking coffee black. We also see chewgy bag #2 with the baby food – this one is egregious, but it says “obstinate headstrong woman”, and I have a very personal connection to that first word. ❤
Also another makeshift vase, this time sunshine lacroix. I’m committed to preserving the mystery of what the flavor is from. For my purposes, it’s pure canned sunshine. I brought my witch dress for no conceivable reason, and I am also realizing I don’t really have nice shoes to go with it. I …must confess, this jacket is the only water resistant thing I have (being phoenician), and..it is danny merch 😭😭 listen, it’s very expensive to buy shit like that at my size, ok? And it would be a waste. But also who cares. Certainly not me! … : ^ D
Tommorow is real day 3! Give it up for day 3! Lemme know in the comments below, oh borrowers, what I should do and see before I leave.
>>robyns_ramblings 